Handy cafe lol

hellooooo. I'm actually blogging in a cyber cafe now because my diamond dash isn't loading ;(

came here with boyfie and friends, they are playing COD lol boys will always be boys ;P

OK im back in my hometown now. Going back to KL this Sunday :D anybody wanna date me out? preferably girls.

I woke up really early today to send my cousie off to band practice, she slept over.
Didnt really got much sleep. My cousie was snoring ah fml :( went downstairs in the middle of the night to crash with my mom :3


lol actually I dont know what to blog about but I feel very paiseh everybody in the cc like got their own thing to do so I end up blogging . how sad is this lol


Well, my college doesn't start in 2 months, so I have plenty of free time. Hallelujah ;) I wanna do so many things but apparently money is a problem. Wanna work but dunno where. Bro say make a resume when I go for walk in interviews. My resume would look miserable.

No working experience, very lazy. Dunno which dumbo will hire me. Summore family like not really encouraging me to work. Im the type that needs alot of 'push' to do something so since they're so discouraging nehmind I shall forget about working :D


Oh. I've made up my mind on what career to go with.
 a Pre-U first, after that I'm going for Law. Denise the lawyer. Can you imagine? :3

 Lol I cannot imagine myself wearing a proper working suit also.

Going for the twinning programme. Hopefully everything goes well and I get to go to UK for my final year.

The other day I went to ss15 for the pork mee and I observed the students there. All frikin tall and buff . Girls also all tall. I felt like a midget. Imma feel like a midget in college I BET.

Few seconds ago my bf was like zhou wan qi what you doing you blogging about us playing izzit aiyo. busted already.


Ok I shall stop now cause my diamond dash is playable :D

dumbfuck

OK. today's blog post will be plainly me ranting so,  Carry on reading if you want to find out more about the rant.

I went to the dentist today, made an appointment early on Sunday to get my teeth whitened.

I know most of the people would be like. SO YOUNG WANT TO WHITEN TEETH? YOUR TEETH VERY YELLOW MEH?

Yes, Im young, and scientifically I'm at the age where teeth whitening is not an issue ( no long term side-effect, plus the teeth's pulp chamber, or nerve of the tooth, is enlarged until the age of 16 only ) and lawfully, its legal.

as to are my teeth that yellow to have them be whitened, yes and no.

Yes to me. But No for the rest of you who are against cosmetic surgeries aka hypocrites.

And the dentist was a hypocrite too.

Actually I intended to buy whitening strips from the dentist back in Sitiawan but after some research I decided to opt for in-office whitening.

What really pissed me off was that this dentist was trying to brainwash me the way she must've brain washed her daughter. And her typical indian parenting point of views. THE FUCK. trying to be so self righteous. the things she said was VERY unprofessional.

the term dentist, will be replaced with BITCH from this line onwards.

The fuck.
Bitch started blabbering things that doesn't make sense to me. But I listened anyway.

First of all, she said she was going to somewhat brief me about the whole procedure, going to explain every single thing to me.
Actually I wanted to just get things started because I KNEW what it is going to be like.
But that's what a professional bitch would do you know. Explain to the patients about procedures and a lil Q&A session.
Just like when you're in the hospital. Infected with cancer, and they tell you things that you should know.And they let you ask things like, how many more months left am I to live? You get the idea.

But bitch started off saying,

she doesnt do this for those 17 and below, so I said Im 18. Then she was like, oh ya I know. I saw your file on the table. ?

Oh ya really bitch? if you knew then why are you telling me you dont do this for those below 17 ?
And scientifically it's not advisable for those below 16 not 17. but if you want to be a special bitch adding your personal preference to your practice then by all means you're just unprofessional.

And then she proceeded telling me everything that I knew. After that she started adding alot of her opinions or should I say bullshit into our conversation.

She was asking me what am I doing now after SPM. I said I just finished ns. then she was like oh my daughter is your age also. she wanted to go to ns but didnt got into the first batch yadayadayada.

So she was like, you're in the science stream right? You take biology right? So what Im explaining now you will be able to understand a?..* insert indian slang to make it sound more realistic*  Then she went on with the hydrogen peroxide bla shit that I already KNOW.
After that she was like so what are your plans ? What are you going to study? Ok nehmind, all these questions is just a friendly gesture right. Its common for people to be asking you about your plans when you say you're 18. whether their genuinely interested to know or not.

Ok what really ticked me off was these few things that she said.

1. I shouldn't waste money doing this, my teeth is in the A3 band ( there's 3 groups, A2, A3 and A3.5 )

Most normal people = A3 group. Unless Im going for modelling or a photoshoot theres absolutely no need for me to do it. Your teeth will just be a few shades whiter only. People down the street wont even notice.

2.  I'm still very young, should wait until I start working only do it. For now use the money for my studies.

3. My daughter also insist on whitening, since she was in secondary school, but I dont let her. I say no to her.

4. My daughter just celebrated her 18th birthday and was like I am legal to take wine already. So I understand why you want to do this.

5. I say no to my children. ( I forgot what she said in exact words, but my mom was there and she was saying something indirectly insulting my mom. Something like My mom cannot say no to me but she say no to her children )

6. YOU SO YOUNG YOUR TEETH OKAY ALREADY. YOUR FACE ALSO SMOOTH. NO NEED TO WORRY ABOUT ALL THESE COSMETIC THINGS. YOU WILL BE BEAUTIFUL FOR THE NEXT 20-30 YEARS OF YOUR LIFE. I REMEMBER LOOKING THROUGH MY PHOTOS WHEN I WAS 20 YEARS YOUNGER, AND I WAS LIKE WOW, SO PRETTY AH EVEN WITHOUT ALL THIS COSMETIC THINGS. DONT GO NEAR ALL THESE COSMETIC SURGERIES. NT GOOD ONE.

the fuck.

THE FUCK?

1.

first of all. You telling me how to not waste money when you throwing your daughter a 18th birthday party. veh funny.VERY FUNNY.

AND OH SO IF IM A MODEL GOING FOR A PHOTOSHOOT THEN IM AN EXCEPTION, I CAN DO WHITENING. BUT IF IM A NORMAL HUMAN BEING THEN IF I WHITEN MY TEETH = WASTE, IMMORAL?

EH WOMAN, YOU LIVING IN WHAT CENTURY? YOUR CENTURY NO PHOTOSHOP IS IT?

YOU DUMB OR WHAT? WHAT SENSE  IS THIS? WHERES THE LOGIC?

like no logic one lor. Model = not wasting? She surely dont know WHAT IS PHOTOSHOP. THEY CAN PHOTOSHOP PICTURES LA DEI. WHERE'S THE SENSE?

plus, its NOT WASTING WHEN ITS AN ESTEEM BOOSTER FOR ME OK? I have low self esteem. Since Idk how old. So im very self conscious.  PLUS. IM NOT EXPECTING PEOPLE DOWN THE ROAD TO NOTICE. THE FUCK? IM DOING THIS FOR SELF SATISFACTION. NOT FOR PEOPLE TO PRAISE MY WHITE TEETH. the fuck? THE FUCK? she thinks im so dense ? the hell. LIKE I CARE IF PEOPLE NOTICE? ok actually I care but THATS NOT THE POINT OF ME DOING THIS.

2.

Bitch, Im not your daughter. I have a full waver. Im already saving ALOT FOR MY STUDIES.

3.

Again. WHY YOU SO UNPROFESSIONAL ONE? WITH YOUR CLOSE MINDSET? IF YOU TELL ME, AFTER DOING WHITENING, WILL HAVE ALOT OF SIDE EFFECTS. MY TEETH WILL BECOME VERY SENSITIVE OR WHATEVER THEN I ACCEPT LAR. ON BEHALF OF MY TEETHES WELL BEING I CAN NOT DO THE WHITENING. BUT YOU TELL ME ABSOLUTELY NO LONG TERM SIDE EFFECTS. ITS COMPLETELY SAFE.? THE FUCK YOU CONTRADICTING YOURSELF AH?

 4.

again, Bitch Im not your daughter. AND YOU DONT UNDERSTAND. BECAUSE YOU JUST RELATED ME TO SOMETHING ABSURD? WHAT DOES YOUR DAUGHTER'S INTENTION OF DRINKING WINE HAVE TO DO WITH ME WHITENING MY TEETH?

THE INTENTIONS ARE DIFFERENT. YOUR DAUGHTER WANT TO GET WASTED. I WANT A PRETTY SMILE. DF.

5.

HOW DARE YOU COMPARE MY MOTHER AND YOU? Not to be racist but INDIAN PARENTS ARE GENERALLY MORE CONSERVATIVE. THEY STILL CONDUCT ARRANGED MARRIAGES AND STUFF. SORRY BUT MY MOM IS MORE OPEN MINDED. SHE ACTUALLY CARES ABOUT MY WELL BEING. SHE ACTUALLY IS MORE INTERESTED IN MY WELL BEING THAN IN YOUR SKEPTICAL PERSPECTIVES.

my mom asked every dentist that we went to to make sure that my teeth wont become very sensitive etc if I do whitening. She allowed me to do because she knows that Im determined and I know what Im getting myself into. She knows that I did research. Not anyhow. THATS WHY SHE LET ME. PLUS NO SIDE EFFECT. WHY NOT?

6.

lol. HYPOCRITE LA YOU. enough said. you help 12,13,14,15,16,17 year olds do braces. RIGHT? THATS COSMETIC SURGERY. WHATS THE DIFFERENCE?

SO THEY CAN HAVE NICE TEETH. THEY CAN FIX THEIR UGLY TEETH. BUT I CANNOT? BECAUSE MY TEETH IS NORMAL SHADE ALREADY, I CANNOT WANT MORE?

I MUST " BE NATURAL " ? SO WHATS SO NATURAL ABOUT PEOPLE HAVING BRACES DONE? HAR? THAT ONE MORE EXPENSIVE SUMMORE. WHY YOU DONT ASK THEM TO DONT DO? WHY DONT ASK THEM TO SAVE MONEY FOR STUDIES?

CRAZY. DONT LET ME GET STARTED WITH YOUR PHOTOS. LAST TIME WHAT TYPE OF CAMERA PEOPLE USE? NOT CLEAR AT ALL ONE. PEOPLE WITH BIRTH MARK TAKE WITH THAT TYPE OF CAMERA ALSO BECOME NO BIRTH MARK. THATS WHY YOU WERE PRETTY. YOU WERE DELUSIONAL. AND YOU TELL ME YOU NO USE COSMETIC THINGS BACK THEN? YOU NO WASH FACE? NO USE SHAMPOO? THEN NOW WHY YOU USING LIPSTICK? CAUSE OLD LIAO SO USING IT IS APPROPRIATE? THE FUCK LAR.

NATURAL MY ASS

FUCKING STUPID MENTALITY

after that she summore can say, you go back and think about it first larh. if you still want to do i can do one. you know i can just pocket the money and do for you but i think you should think about it first lorh. 

AND SHE EVEN SAID. I'M SURE YOU WONT MAKE THE DECISION IN A RUSH SO I WONT BE SEEING YOU TOMORROW.

by hearing her say that im SURE SHE DOESN'T WANT ME TO DO WHITENING IN HER CLINIC. the fuck lar. I came for proper treatment from a dentist, NOT A STUPID SENSELESS LECTURE FROM A DENTIST. YOU THINK YOU WHO? MAHATMA GHANDI? lol i know linkless also.

HELLO, WHATEVER YOU SAY WONT CHANGE MY DECISION OF WHITENING OK? I'M YOUNG AND VAIN. BUT THERE'S NO WRONG TO THAT. 

I PITY YOUR DAUGHTER. MUST PUT UP WITH YOUR ANCIENT THINKING EVERYDAY. 

SUMMORE SO HYPOCRITE ONE. I SAY NO I SAY NO. -_- 

She made me feel super uneasy in her clinic. Like she doesn't want me in there. the fuck sia. and my appointment was at 12. and at 12.30 her nurse came in and gave her a file say the 12.30 appointment something come already. The fuck. That means she already PLANNED TO get me out of her office by 12.30. the fuck lar. 

by hearing her say that im SURE SHE DOESN'T WANT ME TO DO WHITENING IN HER CLINIC.

Actually I can rant summore. But I veh sian. can ao huet ( vomit blood in hokkien )

I'm going to whiten my teeth tomorrow, just that it wont be in her clinic.

 ending this post with a picture of my curly curly hair.

mia so long

I'm not even gonna justify why I didn't update my blog.
As you know I WENT TO NS.

The above pictures were taken after a week of being in NS. I was still quite fair. Not very fair when I'm standing beside my snowwhite gugu. But throughout ns dead skin cells proceeded to pile on my skin. I became quite dark.                  

Actually NS was not as bad as I thought,infact it was very nice & Im really glad I went. Imma blog about NS in another blog post but for now. Imma blog about SPM!
means this blog post is long overdue.The last blog post of mine was from last year, December 17th. BEFORE I went to NS but after my SPM.


Okay so fast forward imma tell you about the day of results.
I came back from NS just few days (5 to be exact ) before my SPM results came out. I came back on the 16th of March. I remember going for a facial in the afternoon and then on the 17th night I got a surprise, I'll never forget that night  :)

On the day of results, my mom, my grandmom, my bibi and I went for Roti Canai in Kg. Sitiawan. :3 
My mom and grandmom wanted to tag along to school for my results but my confidence level was like 0 and I was really sure that I will bring shame to them so I insisted to go in bibi's car. With him. Only two of us. Ensuring  them that I'll call them as soon as my results are out.

Ok as to why bring shame.
these are the reasons why:

- I studied like 2weeks before SPM.
- I'm serious about studying 2weeks before SPM.
- I kept procrastinating
- I haven't finished revising all the syllabus.
- I was sure that if my bro managed study just a month before SPM and get 9a's, I can do the same also. ( shameless one )
- My classmates most of them already covered few subjects before there was only 2 weeks left.
- I got 5 a's only for my trials.
- My trials got 2 C's summore ( chemistry and addmaths )
- I got no. 28 or 29 in class.
- According to statistics last year, only 26 people got straight a's. and all of them were from last year's science1 class( i think )
- So if we presume that this year there is as many of those who scored straight a's, our class's top 26 will get straight a's ( which means I'm excluded )
- I think I did very bad for Physics. I was comparing answers with my bibi after Paper 1 and alot of MY answers were wrong. Plus bibi was extremely confident with his answers.
When he ask me why did I choose this answer and that answer I will be like  " I dont know la why I chose this answer?" and then start pulling my hair off my head* I'm not joking.
I remember being really bitchy shouting and complaining to my bibi because I did SO MANY SILLY MISTAKES.
Actually I was also very jealous because he did very well.
He was like physics so easy and I was like easy for you only la not for stupid people like me. disgraceful attitude of mine.

aiyo. thinking about it makes me feel :/ SORRY BIBI. I KNOW I WAS VERY IDIOTIC.



Ok, well. Days before getting the results. I'm sure alot of people were really worried. Could see status updates in FB saying things like I want to die if my results are bad etc. But I wasn't nervous or anything because I knew for a fact that I won't be expecting much. Less expectation, less disappointment.
Night before the results. Bibi started to make me panic. But I wasn't as nervous as the night before UPSR or PMR results. Cause back then I was very sure that I will get straight a's, very confident. I was nervous because what if I didn't get straight a's when I gave like 100% of effort? then what if for SPM I give 100% effort and never get straight a's? my whole study system will be messed up. That was why I was very nervous.

BUT as for SPM, I managed to convince myself that 5-6 a's are enough.


So, went to school.Had to pay debt summore for not returning a chicken soup book to the school which I borrowed in 2010. I don't even remember borrowing that book.

There was a short speech from my principal , Dr. Ashley.
Met alot of classmates and schoolmates which I haven't seen for ages. Some of my classmates came with their parents.

I was talking to my classmates and telling most of them that they will surely get wonderful results and that they will have a bright future. Some of them even started college already. Besides, alot of my classmates got 7/8/9 a's for trials. So 10 a's is like confirm already. Close ears also know who will get.

And then Dr. Ashley said this year only 16 got straight a's. Messing up the whole statistic thingy I presumed. And that little glimpse of hope inside me died off instantly. 26 people there may be a chance for me to be inside. BUT NOW YOU TELL ME ONLY 16. 16 ??? the fuck is this.

Dr. Ashley then started announcing names of those who got straight a's. And one by one they went up to stage.

The familiar expected people's names were called. Infact they were already expecting it. They already knew that straight a's were in their hands. The only question to them was how many A+ses. ;_;

and all of the sudden my name was called. I didn't budge, was in disbelief. 
That unexpectedddddddddddddddddddddnesssssssssssssssssssssssssss.
SO HAPPY. Called my dad. My fingers were trembling.
hehehe.

I got 4A+ses
for English, Sejarah, Mathematics and Accounts ( I almost thought of dropping it in the first place. Thank God I did not )

2 A's
for Malay and Biology

and 4 A-
for Moral, Add Maths, Physics and Chemistry

I'm happy and satisfied that I got this results.
Although it's not like I got 10A+ses. But I'm glad that I proved to my parents that I am capable of handling my studies with whatever 'distractions' coming my way. I'm glad that I've earned some bragging rights for them. I'm glad that people who love me are proud of me.

I'm glad that I get to end my highschool with some sort of satisfaction.
And I'm glad that I proved to everyone who doubted my abilities. Who thought that I won't excel.

And for those who think that having a bf means having bad results, I'm glad I proved them wrong.


Now a chapter of my life is closed. Time to turn to the next page.


For those who are sitting for SPM this year, I wish you luck!! Don't be a pessimist and lose hope. It's only April now! You have time to cover whatever subjects you're worried about. ;) trust me, the hardwork will definitely pay off.

Like anyone will listen to me.
lolol I'm ending my blog post with pictures from iCity. Went there ytd with my aunt, my uncle and cousins ;)

and does anyone know where to dl Gossip Girl Season 5? watched the first ep. I'm using my bro's comp and he dl movies with this bitTorrent thingy which I have no idea how to operate.